For a woman who experiences the pain of infertility, Mother's Day can be a pretty sad occasion. Instead of counting years I have been trying to conceive I count how many Mother's Days I have gone childless...if you count the years I tried with my ex-husband I am on 14 now. That includes the years that I was single, cause although I was single I still longed for that child and grieved for the children that I didn't have with my ex.
Yesterday was overall a pretty good day, if you don't count that fact that I got wished Happy Mother's Day by people in my own family who know I'm not a mom. Maybe they did it because I am a Step-mom. Who knows. My mother always acknowledges me on Mother's Day but she always has to add the "Step" in the card....I guess to make me feel better.When my mother-in-law was alive she always wished my Happy Mother's day but would say...Because you are a second mom to "B", my stepson. I only had one stranger wish me a Happy Mother's Day and that was in a restaurant on Friday....so I lucked up there. I hate it when people just assume you are a mother! I skipped church yesterday because of the usually Mother's Day stuff and all the kids there with their moms. Just couldn't take it this year. I did however read several great wishes from friends online this year that have been where I am now, but were celebrating their first Mother's Day. They made sure and acknowledged those of us still waiting for our little miracles. One day (sigh).... My hubby, for the second year in a row has bought me a single rose...this year it was a red one. He doesn't wish me a Happy Mother's Day, he just gives it to me and tells me that he loves me. That is all I need and I feel better, because I think he finally understands what I go through emotionally.
So brings me to the sad part of Mother's Day. I have a High School friend who is losing her battle with Metastatic Triple Negative Breast Cancer. On Saturday, Mother's Day Eve, an organization called "Let There Be Mom" came to Birmingham, Alabama (where Robyn lives) from South Carolina. They help families preserve the memory of a parent who is losing their battle to a disease. They spent the whole day with the family, and although I do not know what they did, I'm sure they did a great job and there will be much for her two young daughters to hold on to as they grow up with their mom in Heaven. Anyway, yesterday, which was Mother's Day, should have been a happy time for the family. Spending what might be Robyn's last Mother's Day together, however she had to taken to the hospital and was admitted. As of this morning the family was told that is was only a matter of days before she closes her eyes one final time. Next year the girls will not have their mommy to celebrate with...but they will have their grandmother. Robyn's mother was with her yesterday, for that I am thankful. As a mother, I'm glad Ms. S has a final Mother's Day memory with her only daughter, although it isn't a very happy memory...at least they were together. So as I have been contemplating Mother's Day and all it encompasses, I think things could be worse. I cannot imagine what my friend and her family are going through right now, and feel somewhat selfish that I had my "Oh Woe Is Me Pity Party" yesterday. I thankfully still have my mom and she still has me. So if you are reading this, take the time to Thank our Father above for the time you have with your mom and if you are a mom with your children. Never let anyone doubt what you felt about them. And if you are feeling really down and low about something going on in your life, just remember there are worse thing out there happening to people who really don't deserve it.
Please pray for my friend Robyn, her husband, her two young daughters, her mother, her brothers and all of her other family and friends as they say goodbye and watch another ANGEL get her WINGS! We love you Robyn! Because I knew you....I have been changed for Good! Thanks for letting me call you my friend.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
Cysts and Babies
So last week I was having terrible pain in my lower abdomen. So I went into the doc and they did an ultrasound. I had what looked like the remainder of a cyst on my right ovary and had a pretty big one on the left one too. The one of the left was a corpus luteum cyst...or at least that is what they think it was since I was unable to go in for my trigger shot, follow up ultrasound to the one at the beginning of this cycle and didn't get the IUI done. So I really messed up with this cycle. Anyway, they did blood work and the PG test they did at that time was BFN...of course. So now it is a waiting game to see if AF is going to start on her own.
Last week I also dealt with some jealousy and longing that I haven't had in a while. I went with my DH to buy a baby shower gift for a guy he works with and I had a little anxiety over it. Sometimes it doesn't bother me...like when I am shopping for my niece that is expecting and my friend who is expecting her first baby. I LOVE SHOPPING FOR THEM! But other people, I have a difficult time with. I have another family member that is expecting her second baby but with her I'm having trouble with too, because well, that is a long story. Then my DH tells me tonight that the daughter of a friend of ours is expecting again...no tact, just says it. ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGG!!!!! GIVE ME AN F'in BREAK!!! Mother's day is less than a week away...I DON"T WANT TO HEAR THAT CRAP!!! This is a girl that I have know since she was like 14 who got pregnant at 16 married at 18 and is now having her 3rd kid! I HATE THIS!
Last week I also dealt with some jealousy and longing that I haven't had in a while. I went with my DH to buy a baby shower gift for a guy he works with and I had a little anxiety over it. Sometimes it doesn't bother me...like when I am shopping for my niece that is expecting and my friend who is expecting her first baby. I LOVE SHOPPING FOR THEM! But other people, I have a difficult time with. I have another family member that is expecting her second baby but with her I'm having trouble with too, because well, that is a long story. Then my DH tells me tonight that the daughter of a friend of ours is expecting again...no tact, just says it. ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGG!!!!! GIVE ME AN F'in BREAK!!! Mother's day is less than a week away...I DON"T WANT TO HEAR THAT CRAP!!! This is a girl that I have know since she was like 14 who got pregnant at 16 married at 18 and is now having her 3rd kid! I HATE THIS!
Saturday, April 24, 2010
On the Rollercoaster again
It has been over a year since my last post and much has happened. I am going to be making an effort to post more frequently, mostly because I need an outlet for this crazy thing I call my life, but also so I can update anyone who used to follow me or begins to follow my story now.
Last March, I went to work out of town so we took a long break from our TTCing. I worked down in Orange Beach, Alabama for my old boss, teaching preschool. Most days I spent my lunch break sitting at the beach in my car reading a book, or just listening to the music of the waves, people and seagulls. Growing up on the Gulf, the beach is were I find my peace and serenity. I stayed with my dad while I was down there. It was nice getting to spend time with my dad but I really missed being home. In reality I missed 7 months of married life because of this, but we needed the money. My last week of work was Labor Day week. We went out of town for the weekend and on Tuesday I headed back down to the coast for my last 4 days of work. On the way down some kids pulled out in front of me and I t-boned them. I was going 50mph when this happened so needless to say, my car was totalled and so was the kids. He ended up with a broken hip and I ended up with major neck and shoulder issues. We were due to start back with our fertility treatments in October so that got put on the back burner. Since September I have been battling pain in my neck, shoulder, chest, upper back and left arm. I have other issues but no one seems to be able to tell me if they are a direct result of the wreck....but until the then I never had trouble. I won't go into too much detail about that because that might be TMI!
So here we are in April already. We are in the middle of a cycle right now. I am CD 21 and have been having pain in my lower right ovary area. I did have the remnants of a cyst at the beginning of this cycle so I don't know if that is why or maybe we got lucky and it is implantation pain :D I highly doubt it, but you never know. We didn't do an IUI this month because we had to pay taxes with the money we thought we were going to have for the IUI....so I have to call my doc and explain to him why we didn't do it. But next month we are going to try another cycle, this time hopefully with clomid and follistim. My weight is still an issue but I'm going to try very hard the next few weeks to get a little off. With us moving I really want to do another cycle with Dr. Allemand. I am really going to miss having him as my doc. I am so worried that another doc won't be as sincere and concerned as he is and the staff at the Montgomery office is. I HATE MOVING!!! Damn the military! Well, I will just have to pray for a good doc...one that will keep going the direction of the Doc. of my dreams!
Last March, I went to work out of town so we took a long break from our TTCing. I worked down in Orange Beach, Alabama for my old boss, teaching preschool. Most days I spent my lunch break sitting at the beach in my car reading a book, or just listening to the music of the waves, people and seagulls. Growing up on the Gulf, the beach is were I find my peace and serenity. I stayed with my dad while I was down there. It was nice getting to spend time with my dad but I really missed being home. In reality I missed 7 months of married life because of this, but we needed the money. My last week of work was Labor Day week. We went out of town for the weekend and on Tuesday I headed back down to the coast for my last 4 days of work. On the way down some kids pulled out in front of me and I t-boned them. I was going 50mph when this happened so needless to say, my car was totalled and so was the kids. He ended up with a broken hip and I ended up with major neck and shoulder issues. We were due to start back with our fertility treatments in October so that got put on the back burner. Since September I have been battling pain in my neck, shoulder, chest, upper back and left arm. I have other issues but no one seems to be able to tell me if they are a direct result of the wreck....but until the then I never had trouble. I won't go into too much detail about that because that might be TMI!
So here we are in April already. We are in the middle of a cycle right now. I am CD 21 and have been having pain in my lower right ovary area. I did have the remnants of a cyst at the beginning of this cycle so I don't know if that is why or maybe we got lucky and it is implantation pain :D I highly doubt it, but you never know. We didn't do an IUI this month because we had to pay taxes with the money we thought we were going to have for the IUI....so I have to call my doc and explain to him why we didn't do it. But next month we are going to try another cycle, this time hopefully with clomid and follistim. My weight is still an issue but I'm going to try very hard the next few weeks to get a little off. With us moving I really want to do another cycle with Dr. Allemand. I am really going to miss having him as my doc. I am so worried that another doc won't be as sincere and concerned as he is and the staff at the Montgomery office is. I HATE MOVING!!! Damn the military! Well, I will just have to pray for a good doc...one that will keep going the direction of the Doc. of my dreams!
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Full Moon, HSG, IUI, Friday the 13th and an Anniversary!
So here we are already into February. This month has already been very busy. It started out with me starting a cycle on my own 4 days before our RE appointment. Steve wasn't able to go but it was just a video conference anyway. The doc and I talked about my weight and where to go next with my treatment. He said since I have had two cycles on my own back to back that we could try another round of pills if I wanted to. I said, "Sure, why not?" He said he liked my Clomid cycle last year better than my Femara cycles so we did clomid. He also watned to do an HSG to recheck my fallopian tubes since it had been 3 years since my last one.
We drove to Birmingham on Sunday for CD10 bloodwork and then back on Monday for the HSG. The HSG went good. Both my tubes are open and the uterus looks good. The procedure went well however afterward I had an "inflamatory reaction" to the dye they used. Basically all the tissue in my abdomen and on the outer parts of my organs became inflamed and irritated. Boy, that sure didn't feel good. I felt like my insides were on fire and were going to explode out of my body. So on Tuesday I ended up back at the doctor. They did bloodwork and an ultrasound and everything seemed to be ok. Basically I just had to wait out the absorbtion of the dye into my body. UGG!
However there was one positive side to me having to go in on Tuesday. During the ultrasound Ms. Sarah discovered three follicals very near ready.....so they gave me my trigger shot and scheduled my IUI for the next day. Steve and I went in yesterday and did IUI #5. I figure with the combination of the full moon, the HSG, the IUI, Friday the 13th and our 5th Wedding Anniversary on Valentine's Day that something has got to happen this month. I hope anyway! 5th IUI....5th Anniversary.....see my thinking?! :D
Anyway, I'm feeling much better today and know that all will be well! 13 days and dounting until we test! I hope I can wait!
We drove to Birmingham on Sunday for CD10 bloodwork and then back on Monday for the HSG. The HSG went good. Both my tubes are open and the uterus looks good. The procedure went well however afterward I had an "inflamatory reaction" to the dye they used. Basically all the tissue in my abdomen and on the outer parts of my organs became inflamed and irritated. Boy, that sure didn't feel good. I felt like my insides were on fire and were going to explode out of my body. So on Tuesday I ended up back at the doctor. They did bloodwork and an ultrasound and everything seemed to be ok. Basically I just had to wait out the absorbtion of the dye into my body. UGG!
However there was one positive side to me having to go in on Tuesday. During the ultrasound Ms. Sarah discovered three follicals very near ready.....so they gave me my trigger shot and scheduled my IUI for the next day. Steve and I went in yesterday and did IUI #5. I figure with the combination of the full moon, the HSG, the IUI, Friday the 13th and our 5th Wedding Anniversary on Valentine's Day that something has got to happen this month. I hope anyway! 5th IUI....5th Anniversary.....see my thinking?! :D
Anyway, I'm feeling much better today and know that all will be well! 13 days and dounting until we test! I hope I can wait!
Friday, December 5, 2008
Time sure flies
Well, here I am again.....taking months to post another blog. Not much has changed in the Fertility front. We have an appointment with our doc on December 17th. I don't know what will happen but hopefully we will try at least another month or two on pills before we move to injections. I'm still working on the weight loss but that has pretty much come to a stand still. I don't know why if I want a child so badly I just can't get myself in gear and lose some weight....you would think having a child would be the motivation that I need! I am very much "Self Sabotaging" in that way. As my hubby so smartly discovered and then pointed out, as long as i don't lose the weight I at least have "it" to blame for not being able to TTC. BUT if I lose weight and I still don't get pregnant then there is only one thing to blame....well, not a thing, but "ME"!!! He truly hit the nail on the head with that one. You would think going to school to be a counselor would keep me from having these issues, but I do! Sometimes it makes me second guess my career direction because of all the trouble I'm having. UGH!! What do I do???!!!
So anyway, life goes on and as we fastly approach our one year mark of working with our new RE I have to try to keep my chin up in regards to our TTCing....I figured by now I would be expecting yet here we are again at another Christmas with no little one of our own. Please pray for me as I struggle with this during the holidays. I really don't feel like celebrating and dread trying to put on a cheerful happy face...but that is one thing I'm very good at. I'll bring out my "Christmas Facade" very soon for every one's sake but my own.
Anyway, time keeps chugging along. It has been a year since my MIL passed away. We have had a very somber week here at the house. Yesterday was a year ago that we buried her. Steve and his sibs have talked several times this week and my MIL's best friend/cousin sent us flowers on Monday to let us know she was thinking about us. That was very hard but it was sweet of her to think of us.
Sorry I don't want to bring everyone down. I'm just having a pity party tonight. I do hope everyone has a great holiday. Merry Christmas and Happy New year! May the new year bring everyone wonderful things.
So anyway, life goes on and as we fastly approach our one year mark of working with our new RE I have to try to keep my chin up in regards to our TTCing....I figured by now I would be expecting yet here we are again at another Christmas with no little one of our own. Please pray for me as I struggle with this during the holidays. I really don't feel like celebrating and dread trying to put on a cheerful happy face...but that is one thing I'm very good at. I'll bring out my "Christmas Facade" very soon for every one's sake but my own.
Anyway, time keeps chugging along. It has been a year since my MIL passed away. We have had a very somber week here at the house. Yesterday was a year ago that we buried her. Steve and his sibs have talked several times this week and my MIL's best friend/cousin sent us flowers on Monday to let us know she was thinking about us. That was very hard but it was sweet of her to think of us.
Sorry I don't want to bring everyone down. I'm just having a pity party tonight. I do hope everyone has a great holiday. Merry Christmas and Happy New year! May the new year bring everyone wonderful things.
Friday, October 31, 2008
It has been a while since I blogged. We have been on a break so that I could get some more weight off.....well, that isn't really happening the way we hoped. It is taking a lot longer. My DH thinks he figured it out and I think he is right. As long I haven't lost the weight, the weight can be the reason I don't get pregnant BUT if I lose the weight and I still don't get pregnant then it is my fault I'm not getting pregnant. And guess what? That is exactly how I feel! If I can blame it on something else I'm better than if it is ME! Does that make sense?
Anyway, a month ago I wrote to one of the local TV news reporters on our local NBC station and suggested a story be done on Infertility during National Infertility Awareness Week. Then I didn't think about it anymore. Then I got an email from one of the producers and they wanted to do the story but it would have to be after "the" week.....and they wanted me to be a part of it. So we finally set it up.
Monday is the day that I will be on WSFA's Alabama Live discussing infertility. I hope I do well. I'm sure I will. I'm going to memorize some facts this weekend about infertility and PCOS so that I can be prepared just in case Kim asks me. I emailed her my story today. Below is a copy of what I wrote. i did this so she would know my story ahead of time and would be able to pull questions from my experience to ask me. I just hope I don't get so nervous that I freeze. Anyway, here is my story...short and sweet.
My Story:
In 1995 at the age of 23, while married to my ex husband, I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS), which causes me not to ovulate and have regular cycles. I basically was told to lose weight and then I would get pregnant. That didn't happen. We divorced in 1998. I met my new husband in 2002 and we married in 2004. We knew from the beginning that it would take a while for us to get pregnant but treatments had changed dramatically between the six years I had divorced and remarried, so we had hope and still do.
We began trying to conceive in August 2005. We were referred to a fertility doctor in Birmingham by my doctor on base. After almost a year of trying and 3 failed Intrauterine Insemination's or IUI's we decided to take a break. Our break lasted a year. Then last fall, while in the Galleria in Birmingham I saw an advertisement for the ART Fertility Program of Alabama. I wrote the phone number down and then called them to see if they accepted my insurance, which they did. The receptionist gave me the web address and I scoured the site to find out everything I could about them. There were two things that drew my husband and I to this fertility program; the fact that there was a satellite office in Montgomery so we wouldn't have to drive back and forth to Birmingham all the time AND one of the doctors had published research on diagnosis and fertility treatment of polycystic ovarian syndrome in the journal Fertility and Sterility. I knew right then and there I had found my doctor!
In February of this year we began our treatments with Dr. Allemand at the ART Fertility Program which is based out of Brookwood Medical Center in Birmingham. Although we have yet to have a successful outcome, we continue to have hope and Dr. Allemand is very encouraging. We have received wonderful treatment from the staff at the office here in Montgomery as well as the main office in Birmingham. We meet with Dr. Allemand via Video Conference to discuss our treatments, which keeps my husband from having to take off work to go to Birmingham. The convenience of having ART in town relieves part of the stress that accompanies the fertility treatment process and I wouldn't trade these doctors and nurses for anything in the world. This time around we have had two IUI's and two failed cycles. Currently I'm preparing for the next step in medications which will be injectables. To reduce my chance of multiples I have a goal weight I'm trying to achieve so that my dosage will not have to be as high. My doctor is confident that we will be able to achieve a pregnancy, it is just a matter of getting to my goal weight and going from there.
Besides the actual trying to conceive there is the emotional side of everything. I have always known that I would be a mom but no one ever told me the journey to get there would be this difficult. As a woman I feel out of sync with the rest of the world sometimes. How I deal with this emotional rollarcoaster changes day to day. If it is not the medications that are loaded with hormones affecting my mood then it is the depression that plagues me. Sometimes I find it hard to be happy for the people I love when they have children, yet I put on a happy face for their sake and then I grieve in private for the one thing that I want the most, "MY CHILD". I truly want to be happy for those around me that have children it is just that some days it is hard when it seems everyone is pregnant except for me. The one thing that helps me through is my faith in God, although I sometimes even struggle with this. That is why I sought out a local support group to help me through some of this emotional and spiritual struggle that I go through with the infertility issues. Knowing there is someone that totally understands where I am helps get me through all of this. And as some of my online friends say, "It does not matter how many children I have, I will always know the pain of Infertility." Whether I become a mom by conceiving and giving birth to my own child or adopting a child, I will be a mom one day. We just aren't ready to give up on our fertility treatments yet. When the time comes we will know and although it will be tough, at least we will know that we did everything we could.
Anyway, a month ago I wrote to one of the local TV news reporters on our local NBC station and suggested a story be done on Infertility during National Infertility Awareness Week. Then I didn't think about it anymore. Then I got an email from one of the producers and they wanted to do the story but it would have to be after "the" week.....and they wanted me to be a part of it. So we finally set it up.
Monday is the day that I will be on WSFA's Alabama Live discussing infertility. I hope I do well. I'm sure I will. I'm going to memorize some facts this weekend about infertility and PCOS so that I can be prepared just in case Kim asks me. I emailed her my story today. Below is a copy of what I wrote. i did this so she would know my story ahead of time and would be able to pull questions from my experience to ask me. I just hope I don't get so nervous that I freeze. Anyway, here is my story...short and sweet.
My Story:
In 1995 at the age of 23, while married to my ex husband, I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS), which causes me not to ovulate and have regular cycles. I basically was told to lose weight and then I would get pregnant. That didn't happen. We divorced in 1998. I met my new husband in 2002 and we married in 2004. We knew from the beginning that it would take a while for us to get pregnant but treatments had changed dramatically between the six years I had divorced and remarried, so we had hope and still do.
We began trying to conceive in August 2005. We were referred to a fertility doctor in Birmingham by my doctor on base. After almost a year of trying and 3 failed Intrauterine Insemination's or IUI's we decided to take a break. Our break lasted a year. Then last fall, while in the Galleria in Birmingham I saw an advertisement for the ART Fertility Program of Alabama. I wrote the phone number down and then called them to see if they accepted my insurance, which they did. The receptionist gave me the web address and I scoured the site to find out everything I could about them. There were two things that drew my husband and I to this fertility program; the fact that there was a satellite office in Montgomery so we wouldn't have to drive back and forth to Birmingham all the time AND one of the doctors had published research on diagnosis and fertility treatment of polycystic ovarian syndrome in the journal Fertility and Sterility. I knew right then and there I had found my doctor!
In February of this year we began our treatments with Dr. Allemand at the ART Fertility Program which is based out of Brookwood Medical Center in Birmingham. Although we have yet to have a successful outcome, we continue to have hope and Dr. Allemand is very encouraging. We have received wonderful treatment from the staff at the office here in Montgomery as well as the main office in Birmingham. We meet with Dr. Allemand via Video Conference to discuss our treatments, which keeps my husband from having to take off work to go to Birmingham. The convenience of having ART in town relieves part of the stress that accompanies the fertility treatment process and I wouldn't trade these doctors and nurses for anything in the world. This time around we have had two IUI's and two failed cycles. Currently I'm preparing for the next step in medications which will be injectables. To reduce my chance of multiples I have a goal weight I'm trying to achieve so that my dosage will not have to be as high. My doctor is confident that we will be able to achieve a pregnancy, it is just a matter of getting to my goal weight and going from there.
Besides the actual trying to conceive there is the emotional side of everything. I have always known that I would be a mom but no one ever told me the journey to get there would be this difficult. As a woman I feel out of sync with the rest of the world sometimes. How I deal with this emotional rollarcoaster changes day to day. If it is not the medications that are loaded with hormones affecting my mood then it is the depression that plagues me. Sometimes I find it hard to be happy for the people I love when they have children, yet I put on a happy face for their sake and then I grieve in private for the one thing that I want the most, "MY CHILD". I truly want to be happy for those around me that have children it is just that some days it is hard when it seems everyone is pregnant except for me. The one thing that helps me through is my faith in God, although I sometimes even struggle with this. That is why I sought out a local support group to help me through some of this emotional and spiritual struggle that I go through with the infertility issues. Knowing there is someone that totally understands where I am helps get me through all of this. And as some of my online friends say, "It does not matter how many children I have, I will always know the pain of Infertility." Whether I become a mom by conceiving and giving birth to my own child or adopting a child, I will be a mom one day. We just aren't ready to give up on our fertility treatments yet. When the time comes we will know and although it will be tough, at least we will know that we did everything we could.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
A trend on TLC's Baby shows
So the past two days I've not been feeling the greatest. I have been watching a lot of TV and not just my soap operas that I've gotten back into since being unemployed. Yesterday I found myself watching "Bringing Home Baby", the show on TLC. The couple they were following had TTC for years and after 6 failed artificial inseminations and 4 IVF cycles, they became pregnant. I cried as I watched the show because I know what it is like to want something as much as they wanted their daughter!
THEN today I was watching "A Baby Story" and the couple was pregnant with twins....they already had a 5 year old and 2 year old. As the show progressed the mom starts talking about how she has PCOS and the only way she has ever been able to get pregnant was by taking Clomid....that is how all of the children were conceived. She said that her doc always warned her there was a chance for twins but she never let it worry her. Then with the last pregnancy she conceived twins. They ended up being a boy and girl. Of course I cried during this one too.
After that show went off, "Bringing Home Baby" came on. I ended up watching both shows because they both followed couples dealing with infertility! Go figure! The first couple had a set of twins that were conceived through IVF, but were surprised when the wife got pregnant with no medical assistance with the new baby. That was a wonderful and encouraging story to hear. The second couple has also dealt with years of infertility and then finally conceived through IVF. They brought home beautiful baby girls. I really bawled my eyes out during this one because the wife got emotional talking about how everyone had waited so long for the girls.
I so want to be one of these couples!!!! I pray for the day that my time arrives. Seeing these stories though, especially the one with the lady who has PCOS, truly gives me hope and keeps me looking to the end of this journey. Although, this journey will never really end, because infertility will always be a part of me!
THEN today I was watching "A Baby Story" and the couple was pregnant with twins....they already had a 5 year old and 2 year old. As the show progressed the mom starts talking about how she has PCOS and the only way she has ever been able to get pregnant was by taking Clomid....that is how all of the children were conceived. She said that her doc always warned her there was a chance for twins but she never let it worry her. Then with the last pregnancy she conceived twins. They ended up being a boy and girl. Of course I cried during this one too.
After that show went off, "Bringing Home Baby" came on. I ended up watching both shows because they both followed couples dealing with infertility! Go figure! The first couple had a set of twins that were conceived through IVF, but were surprised when the wife got pregnant with no medical assistance with the new baby. That was a wonderful and encouraging story to hear. The second couple has also dealt with years of infertility and then finally conceived through IVF. They brought home beautiful baby girls. I really bawled my eyes out during this one because the wife got emotional talking about how everyone had waited so long for the girls.
I so want to be one of these couples!!!! I pray for the day that my time arrives. Seeing these stories though, especially the one with the lady who has PCOS, truly gives me hope and keeps me looking to the end of this journey. Although, this journey will never really end, because infertility will always be a part of me!
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