7 months ago today I became the mommy of an Angel. It feels like it was such a long time ago and yet in the grand scheme of things I know it has only been a blink of an eye.
Even though I am expecting a little miracle I find myself thinking of what my life would be like right now. How big would my belly be? Would I be having a girl or boy? Would I be as anxious and worried as I am now during this pregnancy? What would it be like knowing that my child and my best friend' s child would be born so close together or even on the same day? I know I will never have answers to these questions and a million others just like it. I can never get my first child back. That child was not meant for earth. My heart aches and longs for that child even as I carry its little sister under my heart.
Mommy loves you and misses you my Angel! Watch over your little sister and send her safely to us!