So last week I was having terrible pain in my lower abdomen. So I went into the doc and they did an ultrasound. I had what looked like the remainder of a cyst on my right ovary and had a pretty big one on the left one too. The one of the left was a corpus luteum cyst...or at least that is what they think it was since I was unable to go in for my trigger shot, follow up ultrasound to the one at the beginning of this cycle and didn't get the IUI done. So I really messed up with this cycle. Anyway, they did blood work and the PG test they did at that time was BFN...of course. So now it is a waiting game to see if AF is going to start on her own.
Last week I also dealt with some jealousy and longing that I haven't had in a while. I went with my DH to buy a baby shower gift for a guy he works with and I had a little anxiety over it. Sometimes it doesn't bother me...like when I am shopping for my niece that is expecting and my friend who is expecting her first baby. I LOVE SHOPPING FOR THEM! But other people, I have a difficult time with. I have another family member that is expecting her second baby but with her I'm having trouble with too, because well, that is a long story. Then my DH tells me tonight that the daughter of a friend of ours is expecting again...no tact, just says it. ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGG!!!!! GIVE ME AN F'in BREAK!!! Mother's day is less than a week away...I DON"T WANT TO HEAR THAT CRAP!!! This is a girl that I have know since she was like 14 who got pregnant at 16 married at 18 and is now having her 3rd kid! I HATE THIS!