Friday, March 18, 2011

Life as I know it....aka the past month!

Sorry for being gone so long, but well, LIFE HAPPENS, right?  Such is my life.  I sometimes fill in as a sub at my friend's day care.  Last month she had an employee leave and she needed me to work until she could hire someone new and get them trained, so that is where I have been!  After working all day with babies or 3 and 4 year olds, I barely have enough energy to eat dinner, let alone get on the computer.  On top of that I have been sick twice in the last month as well. Once with a stomach flu that I caught from one of the babies and now I am fighting to get over a really bad cold, which the docs thought was RSV for a little while.....
also caught from the babies :)  Gotta just love daycare!  So needless to say, I have been slacking on my blog, but that isn't the only thing!  I started having FB withdrawals!!!  Is that crazy or what?  But I am back and hopefully will get back to a regular routine, if I ever even had one, of blogging.

The good thing about being so busy is that my mind hasn't been fixated on the loss of my Angel Baby.  I think of my Angel just about everyday, but I don't obsess and lose myself in thoughts of the "what might have beens" as much anymore.  Today though, I have been thinking of my Angel.  I realized earlier this week that if I hadn't lost the baby, I would be almost 20 weeks right now.  I might even have known by now if it was a boy or girl.  But God must have needed my Angel more than I did.  I try to think of the positives like, I know I was blessed to have had my Angel even for a short time.  I know that I will have a child someday and most importantly, I KNOW GOD HAS A PLAN FOR ME!!!  So I continue to have HOPE and FAITH!

I do have some exciting news I can share today.  One of my oldest and dearest friends (we met on the 1st day of 1st grade)  is 18 weeks pregnant.  Much like me, she had trouble getting pregnant when they finally decided to start trying.  A and her DH had not done as much as my DH and I had as far as ART treatments, but had begun getting all of their ducks in a row to move to ART treatments.  I am so excited to follow my friend through her pregnancy and can't wait to be called "Aunt Tasha" !!!  A bittersweet note....she and I would have been due 11 days apart if my Angel had not been called home to Heaven. 

So that is a little of what has been going on with me while I was MIA.  The weather here in Florida is beautiful right now and I hope to spend a lot of time outside here very soon.  Plans for this weekend include getting my rose bush planted in Memory of our Angel!  So lots to look forward to and enjoy this weekend.  I hope everyone, where ever you are, enjoys the weekend that lies ahead!


Chrissie said...

I have just spent a really long time reading through all your posts. You write so well, and our stories are so similar it was bittersweet to read and know I can relate to fully to your experience.
Know I am praying for you and your hubby today. This is a tough journey. Praying for hope.

Lyrehca said...

Hi--coming by belatedly to say thank you for your comment on my post that Mel featured on the Creme de la Creme list this year. Good luck with everything, and I am sorry for your friend's situation (listed on the April 12 post of your blog. All best, Lyrehca