Life as I know it....aka the past month!

Sorry for being gone so long, but well, LIFE HAPPENS, right?  Such is my life.  I sometimes fill in as a sub at my friend's day care.  Last month she had an employee leave and she needed me to work until she could hire someone new and get them trained, so that is where I have been!  After working all day with babies or 3 and 4 year olds, I barely have enough energy to eat dinner, let alone get on the computer.  On top of that I have been sick twice in the last month as well. Once with a stomach flu that I caught from one of the babies and now I am fighting to get over a really bad cold, which the docs thought was RSV for a little while.....
also caught from the babies :)  Gotta just love daycare!  So needless to say, I have been slacking on my blog, but that isn't the only thing!  I started having FB withdrawals!!!  Is that crazy or what?  But I am back and hopefully will get back to a regular routine, if I ever even had one, of blogging.

The good thing about being so busy is that my mind hasn't been fixated on the loss of my Angel Baby.  I think of my Angel just about everyday, but I don't obsess and lose myself in thoughts of the "what might have beens" as much anymore.  Today though, I have been thinking of my Angel.  I realized earlier this week that if I hadn't lost the baby, I would be almost 20 weeks right now.  I might even have known by now if it was a boy or girl.  But God must have needed my Angel more than I did.  I try to think of the positives like, I know I was blessed to have had my Angel even for a short time.  I know that I will have a child someday and most importantly, I KNOW GOD HAS A PLAN FOR ME!!!  So I continue to have HOPE and FAITH!

I do have some exciting news I can share today.  One of my oldest and dearest friends (we met on the 1st day of 1st grade)  is 18 weeks pregnant.  Much like me, she had trouble getting pregnant when they finally decided to start trying.  A and her DH had not done as much as my DH and I had as far as ART treatments, but had begun getting all of their ducks in a row to move to ART treatments.  I am so excited to follow my friend through her pregnancy and can't wait to be called "Aunt Tasha" !!!  A bittersweet note....she and I would have been due 11 days apart if my Angel had not been called home to Heaven. 

So that is a little of what has been going on with me while I was MIA.  The weather here in Florida is beautiful right now and I hope to spend a lot of time outside here very soon.  Plans for this weekend include getting my rose bush planted in Memory of our Angel!  So lots to look forward to and enjoy this weekend.  I hope everyone, where ever you are, enjoys the weekend that lies ahead!

A trend on TLC's Baby shows

So the past two days I've not been feeling the greatest. I have been watching a lot of TV and not just my soap operas that I've gotten back into since being unemployed. Yesterday I found myself watching "Bringing Home Baby", the show on TLC. The couple they were following had TTC for years and after 6 failed artificial inseminations and 4 IVF cycles, they became pregnant. I cried as I watched the show because I know what it is like to want something as much as they wanted their daughter!

THEN today I was watching "A Baby Story" and the couple was pregnant with twins....they already had a 5 year old and 2 year old. As the show progressed the mom starts talking about how she has PCOS and the only way she has ever been able to get pregnant was by taking Clomid....that is how all of the children were conceived. She said that her doc always warned her there was a chance for twins but she never let it worry her. Then with the last pregnancy she conceived twins. They ended up being a boy and girl. Of course I cried during this one too.

After that show went off, "Bringing Home Baby" came on. I ended up watching both shows because they both followed couples dealing with infertility! Go figure! The first couple had a set of twins that were conceived through IVF, but were surprised when the wife got pregnant with no medical assistance with the new baby. That was a wonderful and encouraging story to hear. The second couple has also dealt with years of infertility and then finally conceived through IVF. They brought home beautiful baby girls. I really bawled my eyes out during this one because the wife got emotional talking about how everyone had waited so long for the girls.

I so want to be one of these couples!!!! I pray for the day that my time arrives. Seeing these stories though, especially the one with the lady who has PCOS, truly gives me hope and keeps me looking to the end of this journey. Although, this journey will never really end, because infertility will always be a part of me!