Well life has just thrown me another curve ball. Last night my DH was on Myspace and noticed that my cousin's page name was "I'm going to be a Mommy!!!!!". He asked me if I had seen it and I said no. At first I thought maybe it was a joke from April 1st that she just forgot to change. We looked at her comments and someone asked her about it. So we were nosey and looked at that person's page and sure enough, my cousin confirmed she is going to be a mommy. I called my mom this morning and asked her about it and she said it was true. My aunt called her Saturday to let her know and mom told her not to tell me because of my state of mind right now. My mom said that my aunt thought I should be told sooner rather than later because the older sister is getting married in September and she didn't want me to find out when I see her walking down the aisle, as her sister's Maid of honor, with a big belly.
I HATE WHEN PEOPLE THINK I CAN'T TAKE SOMETHING!!! LIKE I'M EMOTIONALLY FRAGILE AND WILL TOTALLY HAVE A BREAK DOWN OR SOMETHING WHEN HEARING ABOUT SOMETHING LIKE THIS!!!!!
What I hate more is finding out that is was an accident! My cousin is on the pill and basically had a one night stand with a guy that was about to leave for Iraq. Why for some does it take one time....and happens even though birth control is used.?????? This makes my aunt's second great-grandbaby conceived the same way....this cousin is really a second cousin. Her mom and dad are shocked that she would get pregnant since she is the one usually with a good head on her shoulders. And this boy that knocked her up, well, he doesn't believe that the baby is his and is sending very hateful email to my cousin.
I'm just so tired of it being everyone else but me!! Since DH and I have been TTC I have had 2 nieces (both 17 at the time), 2 nephews (one married, one not married), and 6 cousins(one of which had 2 babies 10 months apart, and all unmarried at the time of conception except for one) have babies. Now this 21 year old unmarried cousin and my 16 year old niece get pregnant. Not to mention my two sisters-in-law have each had a baby and now one is expecting again. That is a total of 16 babies in my family in 3 years time. Not to mention all the people I just know that have had babies. UGGG!!!! I'm just really having a pity party right now.
I know my time will come but it doesn't make this any easier!!!